A very long time ago I performed the Heimleich on my sister.

Spencer Reid, that level of awkward and the feeling that certain things you do can never be enough, etc.
And sometimes,
Gregory House, that the world is full of idiots and I must help them NOT hurt themselves.

I have a load of books to give to the library, laundry, and I still haven't had breakfast. I wanted a good warm and totally unhealthy mcdonalds breakfast. (Hey!... I haven't eaten anything remotely McD's ish in a very very long time...) Its like one thirty now though, so that's not happening. And even though I could go and get breakfast from somewhere else, I don't really want to. Ohhh well to that. Actually... I don't feel like leaving my house at all. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything but be in my pj's, nap, watch a movie or two while cleaning something, and making this decision about my car from the comforts of my room.

No. I'm going to have to go out at some point... Have things to do and so forth. I so want a lazy day. The question is, will I get one?


Season 5... Okay so the last three eps of season 4 didn't leave me all that happy. First off, what the flying monkey is with the things happening to Reid? I mean really... No, really? Kidnapped, drugged to the point of addiction, and then Anthrax. I'm missing a few major events but those are the ones that stand out in my mind. You know what CBS? The genius needs a life beyond work, please for the love of God give the poor young man a girlfriend. Something besides catching evil doers, his mom, and his constant learning; you know?
Besides me, many other people thought that Austin would have been a nice change for him. Or the older woman option won't be bad either. I mean he's smarter than a lot of people and that Doc that took care of him/he worked with would be a good match. I'm just saying, lay off of the poor genius for a while. Okay?
Ahem... Just do it! Nike swish people, Nike swish!

I have seen so many cop shows from the entire Law and Order franchise, to the entire CSI franchise, to Criminal Minds, and etc. So no one will ever find my cute little tush in a parking garage by myself (I don't use parking garages unless there is no other option...), I will never ever ever stay at a roadside motel in a remote area where there is no cell service (thank you CM), and last but not least there better be a really good reason for me to be in someone else's basement.

Yes. I once thought about being Jewish. I was very young then...

Last night, since it is now uber early Tuesday morning, I was reminded by the seasons last episodes of Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill quite a few things.

1. Dreams come true everyday.

2. I WILL be happy.

3. I have dreams to fulfill.

4. Giving up is hardly ever a legit option.

5. I can be and am happy right now.

6. Just because other people give up on me, themselves, whatever... doesn't mean that I have to give up on anything or anyone.

7. I am a fantastic writer.

8. Leaving is far from the hardest part.

9. Nothing is over till God says its over and often negotiation is possible.

10. When the time comes its only going to take one man.

11. Wisdom is a saving grace.

12. Being happy doesn't require a lot of thought, it just requires love.

13. Wonder and innocence is one of the best hidden assets. Its not something that we have to loose, its a hidden value which we should work to keep.

Not quite. I have a very distinct last name and not many people in the world have it. I had a friend in middle school who had the same first and middle name as me. For me the same first middle name since my parents were odd enough to give me two middle names.

People get attached to different areas of entertainment to a certain extent. Most of that is healthy... My issue may not be healthy at all. Anyone who glances at my little blog every now and then knows that I do not speak of dating much. I also do not go out on dates, at all. I have never been on a date. While I have had boyfriends and there is a large gap in my memory box that may have once been filled with a relationship that I do not recall... (I choose to write the blank spot off as a series of events that never happened!) I still avidly consider myself a do not date kind of gal. Well... now its odd. I have a huge *sigh*, it really is huge, thing for a character that is probably based on several different people and ideas and unicorn dust with a healthy serving of man.

Grr...! I need a decent, legitimately awesome date that will not remind me why I hate the very concept of dating. If I had my own way, this character who I will not name for the life of me, (well perhaps not to that extreme, I'm sure that he would want me to live...) would be REAL. Yes a real person, because no man I've ever laid eyes on, thought of, and broke up with has ever been that nice/respectful. Not cool! Not cool at all.

I am currently STILL looking for an apartment. Yes, still. I really just want to move out of the state that I am in, but, I also want to give the meds I'm on about a year or two to do what they need to do. Then I will really really want to get out of this place. Before then I need to find an apartment, a pad, a loft, a place. I do not need, but, want roomies though. However, from my internal memory box comes the memory of terrible former roomies. So the question remains: To roommate or not to roommate? That is the question. I entertained the idea of relocating to one of my favorite metro areas for a few days. Those thoughts died quickly with the awful taste of exjade infused orange juice and water. I also thought about adopting kitties when I find the ideal place. There are so many of them sitting in the pound right now and in other non profit organizations just waiting for someone to take one or two of them home and show them a little love. Not now though... I will still consider adopting a furry friend when the timing is correct.

Went to see Knowing with Yari last week and I thought it was good. While some parts of the movie could have used some extra work... the imagery was really good. So overall Knowing gets four Pegasus pins and two glowing unicorns.
Until next time:
Peace, Love, Fuzzy Kittens, and Unicorn Dust

Its a toss up for me. I think its either going to be global warming; death by our own lazy hands... Or nuclear weapons; death by our own vengeful hands. Either way I really think that it will be something that humanity has brought upon itself with its tragically nonsensical behavior.

Roommate Quiz from MyNewPlace Apartments for Rent


And so the apartment hunt is still on... I'm a little weary of roommates at the moment. However, the right person or people, because the more roomies the more mula I save. Sheeshamonga that puts me here in this town for longer than I planned... Oh well. Things in my life always have a lining of silver, gold, or other hues that God knows I'll love. I am still shunning off dates. Its not worth it when I plan to get out of this meager excuse for a city. (lol) Plus... the current man of my dreams remains a tv show character. *woe est me...) Decency is so hard to find...

Last night TresSugar was introduced to all the Teamsugar members. TresSugar is replacing three of the characters who were very much loved by a lot of people... The merge is just awful... Good bye CitizenSugar (NEWS...). Good by GiggleSugar (fun and light comic relief...). Good bye DearSugar (the problem solver of relationship issues and so forth). Even though I hardly ever read DearSugar, I will greatly miss all three of the Sugar gals. In french Tres means very, so this character that they have named very sugar is... I don't know what she is,but I do know that I do not at all like the format that the change has brought along with her. Anyone who used to read the daily news posts form Citizen at work can no longer do that because who wants their employees to be looking at things that have to do with sex on their work computers? Plus as of yet, I have not seen a good enough format for the news, (ie. decent stories) what is there is not what I would consider news. Sadly I bet that news all together will be cut away from the website. I joined TS because it was a place that I could find news from the fashion world, the entertainment world, the tech/geek world, humor, relationship stuff, blogging space, and a place to make my owVn little website(s) about whatever I wanted to talk to the world about.

While I will not be leaving Teamsugar because of my growing fictional drama/fictional blog (http://silversnowflake.onsugar.com/), I will be cutting back on my usage which is very very sad to me.

This is actually kind of funny. I calmed down after my very upset entry this morning and decided to go out for a walk. The walk wasn't bad, I thought about walking again this afternoon... I'll be up as early as possible tomorrow for it. Then I went and got mcd's pancakes. Nice! Super nice...

I have a book to finish reading for school, a paper to write after I finish reading the book, and I am still looking for work. Well the work part will come when its truly necessary, the paper though... That's going to be fun and exciting.

Samantha, Stella, Lois, I have a very long list of names that I think would work for me...

Since I pretty much have problems with both my family and strangers who think they know me just because some idiot said something.... its sometimes just easier to keep all my issues to myself. Other times I mention a few things to my friends but I just feel like its not worth it in the long run. 'Trust few, learn to paddle your own canoe.'

Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing. My trust will always be broken,down to the very nothing of nothing. Love is an illusion that human beings make themselves feel better with. God knows that I am angry. God knows that I my emo side is wounded. God... when? When will I see someone care enough to at least try and save me? I'm so tired of saving others one conversation at a time...

I am currently reading 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' for my lit class. Things are going good, its all a okay. Until my mind strays from the story that is on the pages in front of me to an almost real image of me dancing through the streets of New York (hello Manhattan. How you doing?) with the cast of Confessions Of A Shopaholic, the cast of Criminal Minds, and Tina Turner. Tina Turner looked at me to tell me that my cell phone was ringing while MGG was giving me the "Spencer Reid" eyes. I grabbed my phone and checked to see who was calling me. And that was when I WOKE UP.

I WOKE UP to a ringing cell phone. My cell was ringing. I don't know if I should be angry about waking up from a dream like that or creeped out that I had a dream like that and woke up to a ringing cell phone. The caller was a random one who had the wrong number... My oddities sometimes make me wonder about myself. I had fallen asleep reading the book and somehow my mind tied everything up together in a pretty little packaged dream sequence. Oh joy.

Usually... I do not post random moments of 'crazy' on my bp blog, well not anymore at least. However tonight was a very gorgeous night full of beautiful people. (ie ANTM and CM) I did not even bother to watch the second episode of ANTM that was showing tonight, all of my wonderful attention went to MGG and surprisingly enough that dude from Twilight. Normally a Twilight person would not receive even 5 minutes of my time unless they proved that they could act their way out of a wet paper bag. Its a bit iffy but he almost looked as pretty as me in a dress. And I must mention that his performance was believable, so believable.

There are not enough words for what I have to say about that episode. MGG did such an amazing job and Reid was just awesome. I expect nothing less from that character. I would also like to point out that if Spencer Reid was a real person, I would give him as many hugs as he could handle and bake him a tin of cookies while insisting that he have a cup of hot chocolate and do something not work related. He could teach me how to play chess better... For now he is indeed Boy Wonder!

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If I discovered a new planet either tonight or with in the next week I would name it after Spencer Reid/MGG. MGG's acting was fantastic tonight and he looked really good in all of his profile shots. If there was a moon to that planet I would tag it as a Jackson moon because even though I cannot stand Twilight he proved to me that he has acting skills and is worth more than 5 seconds of my attention.

Okay... to be honest. In a 'sane' moment that does not involve the awesomeness of t.v. characters... I would probably name the planet after one of the words that came to mind in that moment of elation. It would also depend what the planet looked like. The words that came to mind over all would help me find an appropriate name or I would just go ahead and do the above paragraph.

English/History
Yeah they definitely have a big hold on my life. I read and write a lot. I'm looking forward to getting a few writing "things" started.

I have actually used all of my icons at least 5 times. I don't choose icons that I think I'll never be able to use.

For example: This icon holds all sorts of truth. The world really is changeable by me and anyone else with a desire to do something big.